The past few days have been a roller coaster of emotions for me.
I am astounded by how quickly I can go from such a low to such a high. It feels insane!
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It shows me the beautiful craziness of our human minds.
I can create this sense of absolute self-doubt, insecurity and anxiety, and yet within minutes my experience transforms into a completely different universe and I’m seeing that anything is possible.
I get to choose it. It’s astounding!
I feel as if I’m living more and more like a toddler who loses themselves in an experience of delight and play, and then falls down, scrapes a knee and howls as if their life is over! And a few minutes later, tears still wet on their face, gets up and ready to play again.
I didn’t know life could feel like this.
I didn’t know there was so much available to be felt.
I can see how I tried to protect myself by not letting my highs be too high, so, my lows wouldn’t be so low. I tried to confine myself into a band of acceptable emotional expression so that I’d be safe.
It feels like the roof of my world has been torn off and I can feel so much moving through me.
It is intense. Sometimes it rocks me.
But it moves.
It’s only there to be felt. And then the next thing comes in and there’s so much delight! It’s so alive. I feel so alive.
This morning, I danced. I’d never known how good it is just to move, just to feel that alive in my body.
Something has woken up that I didn’t know was asleep. It’s intense and disruptive for this little mind of mine.
It feels so good to be alive.
